passions

This post is not in anyway sexual. I'm talking about being passionate about certain subjects.

Most people have a passion in life. My mom is passionate about her music. My dad has a passion for music and politics. My mother-in-law has a passion for learning more about natural medicine and natural healing, and food storage. My sister-in-law is passionate about birth and food storage. Me? I can't say I really have anything I'm super passionate about. It's not like I'm not interested in anything, it's just that I have not found my true "passion." 

But isn't what you studied in college a passion of yours? Not really. You see, people stereotype English Language majors as grammar nazis, when really we're trained to be the contrary. We are taught to be interested in everyone's quirks. But there are the things we're snobby about, like phonetics and phonology. Do you know what a voiceless labiodental fricative is? Or what an intransitive sentence structure looks like? Oh, I kill me. I guess you can also say that I get angry when people assume that my degree is in English (English Language is completely different, for the last time!). 

I also got my degree in that area because it is something I'm good at; one of the few things. And I thought getting a minor in Editing would increase my chances for employment. Judging by the fact that I've been out of college for five months now and I am still unemployed....

I really don't know what I want out of life. I mean, yes I want to have kids someday, but I also want some sort of an outlet. At the moment, I don't seem to have found it. 

Oh well. 

Some things to live by

I got this in an e-mail from my mom. There are quite a few of these I'm still trying to learn. I thought I'd share this with you (with a few of my editorial comments):

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.  

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.  

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.  

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.  

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. 

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. 

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.  

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. (me: yay! Chocolate!) 

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.  

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry. 

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.  

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.  

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. 

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. 

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.  

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. 

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.  

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.  

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow. 

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. (me: what is wrong with purple, may I ask?) 

24. The most important sex organ is the brain. 

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.  

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?". 

27. Always choose life.  

28. Forgive everyone everything. 

29. What other people think of you is none of your business...  

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time. 

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.  

33. Believe in miracles. 

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do. 

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.  

37. Your children get only one childhood.  

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. 

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.  

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.  

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. (me: But I need a job...) 

42. The best is yet to come. 

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.  

44. Yield.  

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. 

Where's my job?

So far, only two things have worked out for me in the last year:


(1) I graduated from college


(2) I got married.


I was hoping "have a job" would be in there, but unfortunately, no. 


I applied for an internship at the Orem Library just before Christmas, and it seemed just PERFECT for me! If I had gotten it, I would have helped plan events going on at the library. Everything about it seemed just right, and I LOVE the library! I would have helped plan the Timpanogos Storytelling Festival too. I got as far as the interview (which was on Monday) and just yesterday, I got the same message I've gotten from employers the last several months, "Thank you for considering us, but we have decided to go with another applicant." This time, it was over the phone, and I honestly wish I had told that lady, "Gee, as if you're the only person who's been telling me that lately!" 


What is it about me that when prospective employers see me and interview me, they don't want to hire me?! And what is the point of interviews, huh? To me, it's just to see how you look. Why I say that is because there was a girl they interviewed right before me who looked like she should be a model. Her hair was perfectly coiffed, she had GORGEOUS clothes, and she walked out like she owned the place. It also didn't help that the interviewers were laughing and having a good time during her interview. She must have really wowed them. No pressure on me, right? I thought I was dressed nicely, but compared to her, I was wearing rags. And my interview? Fairly short, but I thought I did okay. I could have done better, though. 


I'm seriously ready to give up here. I've had it. If I get one more rejection, I think I'll have to be put in a mental institution. You might say, "Go take a class on how to interview." Trust me, that wouldn't help. It's going to take a whole lot more than a class on interviewing and resumes to get me to be more confident in interviews.


I'm starting to wonder if I really am employable. 


I'm done.

And see if the Orem Public Library ever gets my business again.

2010

First post of the new year. Woot.

Our New Year's Eve was pretty nice. We drove up to Salt Lake to go see the lights on Temple Square. Parking was another matter, but it was nice. After walking around Temple Square, we were hungry and we went to a Chinese restaurant that Stephan's Advanced Calculus teacher (who is from China) recommended. It was pretty good--the potstickers were delicious though! We drove back home, and Stephan talked to his friends on Skype until almost midnight. I just vegged. We're pretty boring here in the Anderson household.

The next day was when we celebrated a late Christmas with Stephan's family, since some of us were out of town for Christmas. The party wasn't until four, but Stephan dropped me off early so he could hang out with his friends. Meanwhile, I sewed an apron for Stephan's cousin's wife for the extended Anderson family Christmas party that was to take place the next day. She also just married into the family. I did pretty well considering how I am not the most experienced seamstress (shocking since my mother is famous for her sewing) and we had to make up a pattern for it since Kathy's original pattern was nowhere to be found. I think I've decided that I want to get serious about sewing.

At four, the party started. I forgot to mention that it was Alex's (Stephan's younger brother) birthday on New Year's. So now they have a Christmas birthday (me) and a New Year's birthday. We opened presents (Stephan and I got some nice stuff), ate food, and played a lot of games. It was fun and tiring evening.

The next day, we drove up to Logan for the annual Anderson Christmas Party at the Coppermill (a restaurant). The food was pretty good; Stephan kept raving about the chicken, but I thought it was merely all right. Then again, I didn't have a huge appetite that evening. the beef was quite good, though. There were a few games and there was also a gift exchange. Kaitlin (the girl who I gave the apron to, but wasn't there) had purchased some beautiful black velvet gloves for me and a lovely teal "scharf" (scarf+shawl) as Stephan likes to call it. I've only met Kaitlin once, but I must say she has exquisite taste :)

That's pretty much all for now. The last few days have been pretty lazy and somewhat boring. I'm not really looking forward to Stephan starting back to school tomorrow. At least we only have one more year of this, hopefully.

Oh, if anyone wants any sweets, let me know. We have too much sweets and such around here that we got as gifts.