10/15

The last three weeks have been pretty rough around here. School has gotten crazier for Stephan (are midterms here already?) and he's stressed about being the main breadwinner all over again and trying to do well in school at the same time. It's really hard for me to watch, and I'm doing what I can to help him out.

I *sort of* have a job. Last Friday, I decided to go see one of the women I visit-teach, partly to set up an appointment. We got to talking, and my layoff came up and she asked if I would like to baby-sit her son while I'm looking for another job. She's divorced and obviously has to work, so she really wants good childcare for her little boy. I actually watched him today, and he's a fun kid. The pay isn't very much, but every little bit counts. 

And I'm starting a homemaking blog. I'll provide more details another time :)

Update

I am actually doing much better now. Sure, I wish that I hadn't lost my job, but what's done is done and it is time to move on. How did I get to this point so quickly? I let myself mourn instead of wasting energy on trying *not* to mourn, if that makes sense. 

I also have come to a possible conclusion as to why I lost my job, but I will not share it here on such a public medium ;) However, if I am asked personally, I will give my answer. I will say here that it was through no fault of my own.

In all honesty, I have no regrets about this job. I know that I was supposed to work there and that Heavenly Father guided me to it. I know He has a plan for me, even though I have no clue what it is right now. And even though I have no idea how we are going to make ends meet with just Stephan's income, I know that we will be taken care of. Heavenly Father will not abandon us; he hasn't yet. 

Thank you everyone for your kind words and support. We really appreciate it! Please keep them coming, because I don't know how long I will be unemployed and I know that there will be discouraging times ahead of us. 

Unemployed...AGAIN!

About an hour after arriving at work, my supervisor asked me to meet him in the conference room. I did, and he was in there with one of the company owners. I was told that they had evaluated my position and that I was no longer needed. It sounds like they couldn't afford to keep me on. So, my supervisor then took me back to my desk so I could gather everything, he wished me the best, and that was the end.

It's easy for people to say, "Look for another job!" Do you have any idea how long it took me to get this job? I had been out of college for almost a year before I found it. Now I have to start ALL OVER AGAIN. So now we have to live on Stephan's income, which really stinks because he is only working 14-15 hours a week. This really sucks. 

Maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't work and that I should do what all good Mormon women should do: stay at home and pop out babies.