My Immortal

This is one of my current favorite songs. I recently got into Evanescence, even though they've been around for a while...yeah, it just takes me that long to get into current artists. But this song really describes how I've been feeling about my somewhat recent "break up". I mean, yeah the guy and I are still friends, but this kind of describes some of the emotions I've been experiencing:

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

At the moment I am not keen on sharing the details of the break up itself, but I can say that it wasn't the best of situations even though we both tried to keep a good face on it. But this song describes some of the things I faced with him...except the hand-holding and wiping tears part. I did invest a pretty good bit emotionally though, but what should you expect? We were seeing a lot of each other those few months and I was starting to think that we were dating and that there was a possible future. Which isn't to say that there absolutely isn't a future, but I'm not betting on it.

Yeah, this is my late night thought...I should go to bed.