So far, only two things have worked out for me in the last year:
(1) I graduated from college
(2) I got married.
I was hoping "have a job" would be in there, but unfortunately, no.
I applied for an internship at the Orem Library just before Christmas, and it seemed just PERFECT for me! If I had gotten it, I would have helped plan events going on at the library. Everything about it seemed just right, and I LOVE the library! I would have helped plan the Timpanogos Storytelling Festival too. I got as far as the interview (which was on Monday) and just yesterday, I got the same message I've gotten from employers the last several months, "Thank you for considering us, but we have decided to go with another applicant." This time, it was over the phone, and I honestly wish I had told that lady, "Gee, as if you're the only person who's been telling me that lately!"
What is it about me that when prospective employers see me and interview me, they don't want to hire me?! And what is the point of interviews, huh? To me, it's just to see how you look. Why I say that is because there was a girl they interviewed right before me who looked like she should be a model. Her hair was perfectly coiffed, she had GORGEOUS clothes, and she walked out like she owned the place. It also didn't help that the interviewers were laughing and having a good time during her interview. She must have really wowed them. No pressure on me, right? I thought I was dressed nicely, but compared to her, I was wearing rags. And my interview? Fairly short, but I thought I did okay. I could have done better, though.
I'm seriously ready to give up here. I've had it. If I get one more rejection, I think I'll have to be put in a mental institution. You might say, "Go take a class on how to interview." Trust me, that wouldn't help. It's going to take a whole lot more than a class on interviewing and resumes to get me to be more confident in interviews.
I'm starting to wonder if I really am employable.
I'm done.
And see if the Orem Public Library ever gets my business again.
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2 comments:
Yeah, job searching sucks. But please don't go to a mental institution :) Have you considered volunteering at places you would like to work at so as to build some connections? Sometimes places you volunteer will have job openings. In the meantime, you're happily married and that's a good diversion, right?? :)
I know it can be so discouraging, but something will come along when it's time. Heavenly Father will provide something for you and He already has things in the works. Your job is to keep doing exactly what you're doing, and when the time is right, it will happen.
I know, I know it's MUCH easier said than done. ;) Hang in there!
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