Greener grass

You know the saying, "The grass is always greener on the other side."

I've been thinking that a little bit lately. Sometimes I wish I hadn't been in such a hurry to graduate from college. You see, Stephan comes home from school/work and he has to study and do homework. Me, I have no homework and I don't have to study for any tests. And yet, when I was getting closer to graduating, I was looking forward to having time to pursue hobbies, read books for FUN, and not have to worry about homework. I have to say, it's been an adjustment going from being in school for a good part of my life to having no school whatsoever. I have so much time on my hands that I don't know what to do with it! If you know me, I don't deal with boredom very well. I have to do something productive or else I will beat myself up for it at the end of the day. Another indicator that I am my parents' kid.

Sometimes I also think having a job will be better. But I'm afraid of not having enough time to cook delicious meals (Stephan loves my cooking) or to keep the house as clean as I have come to. I hate to say it, but I don't know if I trust Stephan to keep the apartment as clean as I do, ha ha.

On the plus side, we have discovered that Stephan's income is helping us more than we ever thought it would! Honestly, I think that's a tender mercy right there! It must be a blessing for paying our tithing and living within our means. So folks, live within your means, you'll be blessed for it. The only debt that we have is Stephan's scooter, and technically the car we have to pay my parents back for overtime.

I am learning to enjoy life as I am living it now, instead of focusing on what I don't have (which can be hard). Doing housework does wonders for boredom, though it can get tedious so I have to discover ways to make it more interesting. I have taken more pleasure in reading. I have gotten started on researching for my future novel, and have received a lot of inspiration for it. Stephan loves the food I make, so apparently I have underestimated my abilities as a cook. Baking has also become a talent of mine. More hobbies are being pondered, and yes I am still looking for a job.

Sorry if this post has seemed scattered. It was just how I was thinking. Maybe I'm tired. Good night.

Oh wait, we are most likely spending part of Christmas break in Houston. I'm looking forward to a snow-free Christmas!